Toilet Trouble

So I have been doing a workout video that I got a few years back called Slim in 6. This is a precursor to the P90x workout that I am terrified to do. I started the video that requires daily workouts for six weeks, it has three different workouts that you do for two weeks at a time. I feel good about it it is low impact so it is okay on my knees and only takes about 25 minutes which is great because I can do it while the baby is napping.

Well the title may have thrown you off but there is a reason behind it. This particular workout requires a lot of squats and such, well I have found that when your quads hurt sitting on the toilet is soooo painful. Now it is not the actual sitting that bothers me it is the process of sitting and then standing back up. With the increase of water intake I find that I have to visit the Lou way too often and my legs are paying the price!

Great Article

A former employer and someone I like to consider a friend sent me an article today from the New York Times that he thought I might find interesting and I did. I thought you might also find it interesting so I am posting the link here http://www.nytimes.com/2010/04/18/magazine/18exercise-t.html?pagewanted=2 . This is not a long read and I found it to be very informative especially for the ladies.

Cheater!!!!

Okay so it would be easy for me to lie and say that everything has been going well but that is not why I am doing this blog. I cheated this weekend! I was doing great following my diet but then I cheated! It started off with breakfast on Saturday when I met up with some girlfriends for some much needed girl time and ended with a delicious Sunday night dinner with my husband. I was okay with having the french toast Saturday morning and figured I would work it off that afternoon with a hike but that never happened and it was like an avalanche of delicious food this weekend! But alas it has led me to a new outlook on this Monday morning. I am geared up for another try!!!

GYMidation

What is it about the gym that is so intimidating? I get that a lot of in shape people go there to keep in shape but isn't the biggest reason they stay in business that the out of shape need to get in shape? Going to the gym is a whole process it begins with the decision to go (this decision is usually made shortly after I get out of the shower and I get a glimpse of my naked body in the mirror), then I have to figure out a sitter, and then the negotiations begin. "Okay it's been a while since you have been here so just ease into it, just a half hour on the elliptical or some other cardio device", "Don't overdo it you want to be able to workout again this week", or other such thoughts. Then it begins the anxiety over what you look like, "oh these pants are too tight everyone is going to be looking at my ass", "should I have put some makeup on", and so forth. By the time I get in there I am exhausted just from the arguing going on in my head. But seriously I can't be the only one because there are ladies in there in full makeup, with their hair done, and a perfectly matching workout outfit. And let's be honest there is nothing grosser than sweating through all that concealer and mascara. But we do it anyway because we all think everyone there is looking at us, because that person on the treadmill next to you has nothing better to think about than what you look like or how your clothes fit.

As you can tell by my rant I went to the gym, I told myself to do 30 minutes on the elliptical and settled for 10 then I did the circuit training they offer at 24hour fitness (one minute on each piece of machinery and then you do it all again). I did a minute on each machine (except the last one because some muscle head guy wouldn't move) but was so embarrassed to be there by this point that I only did one rotation. So I left feeling glad I had come but disappointed in myself that I let my insecurities get the better of me.

New to this whole Blogging thing

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Sunday Update

So just a quick update, down a total of 3 pounds for the week!

Apology to the "Trophy Wife"

I am lucky to be able to stay home with my new baby while my husband provides for us but while I was a working stiff I noticed "The Trophy Wife". Meaning while I was out during the day I would see other women who were noticeable, the were thin, they had their hair done nice, and their makeup on. More often then not they were pushing a stroller or with their children and I would think to myself "well sure if I didn't have to work I could look like that too". Wow was I wrong, I did not give these women the credit they deserved. I hardly have time to brush my teeth it seems let alone get to the gym. You don't realize how much time an infant takes. I have to get the housework done, take a shower, get myself dressed, and do any personal stuff during his naps because between the playtime, bottle feedings, diaper changes and effort it takes to get him to take a nap I am just plain out of time. Even though during any given tantrum I am ready to put him in daycare I feel so blessed to be able to be with him daily and watch as he grows before my eyes and I would not trade that for anything. So I guess what I am saying is I'm Sorry! I am sorry I did not give you Trophy Wives the credit you deserve, you get it all done and you look good doing it!

One Down a Million to Go!!!

So i weighed myself this morning and I was down a whole whopping pound!!! But hey it's one less to lose.

I am doing a couple things to keep track of things, I am using an app on my iphone called Lose It and I find it pretty handy. It lets me track my food and exercise, it gives me a calorie budget so I know how many I still have left so that I can plan accordingly. It also gives me an idea of how many calories I can consume daily to meet in order to meet my goals. My goals by the way are 1 to 2 pounds per week.

So exercise is tough lately because I am so heavy, I tried the Couch to 5K program about a month ago and managed to injure my knee pretty bad so now I am weary to do anything with heavy impact. I used to love to box and kickbox, so although I am too poor to go see my old trainer Tony (I do miss him so) I decided that Matt can be my trainer (so far he has not been much of a help). I went down to the sporting good store and bought those target mitts so he can wear them and I can punch him (good for exercise and marriage counseling) so when we actually get around to using them I will let you know how it goes. I did however pick up a jump rope while I was there because that is how I used to warm up when I went to the boxing gym. Oh my goodness if you haven't jumped rope in a while you should pick one up! It was 11 dollars and well worth it, it came with a CD with a program on it so I downloaded that to my iphone. The program is only 15 minutes long but after the first day I was soooo sore, I didn't realize my core would be worked and my shoulders as well. Anyhow it is a fairly low impact, quick way for me to get some exercise while the baby is taking a nap.

So there you have my first pound lost I am excited to get rid of the rest!!!

Fat

Seems like that word is always in my vocabulary. Funny I have been using that word to describe myself since I was just a kid but sometimes I look back on photos of myself when I thought I was "Fat" and I would love to be "Fat" again. Most of you ladies know what I mean when I say that. But nonetheless here I am bigger than I have ever been and ready to do something about it. So here it is my brutally honest account of my journey to lose the weight.

I have been gradually getting bigger since I got married in January 07 and moving to Atlanta shortly after the wedding did not help much. We didn't have any money and I really missed my friends and family. So depression ensued and on came the weight, I never exercised and food was my new best friend. I put on almost 80 pounds in less than 3 years. I think I have friends that weigh barely more than that! I wish I could blame my weight on my beautiful baby boy born in November 09 but it turns out I lose weight while pregnant. I weigh 12 pounds less now than I did when I got pregnant.

I love to be active but I am extremely lazy and since it has been so long since I led that active lifestyle working out is the hardest thing I have ever done. I love my baby boy but the 10 lbs 5oz kid did a number to my belly so now things jiggle now that never jiggled before. I will document my attempts to exercise and my results.

One of my biggest motivators is that I want to be a surrogate mom. This is something I have always wanted to do and the fact that they are going to pay me is a huge bonus. However, even though I can get pregnant and deliver my own kid with no issue they will not allow me to be a surrogate until I lose 60 pounds. My ideal weight would be closer to a 100 pound weight loss but my more immediate goal is the 60 I have to lose to become a surrogate.

So there you have my basic history, my motive, and my goal. Hopefully this will be a way to share my story, my tears, and my laughs as I embark on this journey.