Fat

Seems like that word is always in my vocabulary. Funny I have been using that word to describe myself since I was just a kid but sometimes I look back on photos of myself when I thought I was "Fat" and I would love to be "Fat" again. Most of you ladies know what I mean when I say that. But nonetheless here I am bigger than I have ever been and ready to do something about it. So here it is my brutally honest account of my journey to lose the weight.

I have been gradually getting bigger since I got married in January 07 and moving to Atlanta shortly after the wedding did not help much. We didn't have any money and I really missed my friends and family. So depression ensued and on came the weight, I never exercised and food was my new best friend. I put on almost 80 pounds in less than 3 years. I think I have friends that weigh barely more than that! I wish I could blame my weight on my beautiful baby boy born in November 09 but it turns out I lose weight while pregnant. I weigh 12 pounds less now than I did when I got pregnant.

I love to be active but I am extremely lazy and since it has been so long since I led that active lifestyle working out is the hardest thing I have ever done. I love my baby boy but the 10 lbs 5oz kid did a number to my belly so now things jiggle now that never jiggled before. I will document my attempts to exercise and my results.

One of my biggest motivators is that I want to be a surrogate mom. This is something I have always wanted to do and the fact that they are going to pay me is a huge bonus. However, even though I can get pregnant and deliver my own kid with no issue they will not allow me to be a surrogate until I lose 60 pounds. My ideal weight would be closer to a 100 pound weight loss but my more immediate goal is the 60 I have to lose to become a surrogate.

So there you have my basic history, my motive, and my goal. Hopefully this will be a way to share my story, my tears, and my laughs as I embark on this journey.